Over the Hump!

In every project, it seems, there is a point where I just cannot proceed right away. The pattern changes, the sleeves have to get attached, etcetera, etcetera, and somehow I need to grow some courage to continue. Well I grew my courage on my cardigan and started the cable pattern. I, of course, already messed up the second row of the cable chart and had to take it out, but it has been started and the roadblock is gone.

 Sometimes, I think, life is like knitting in this way. We need a little rest time to grow some courage to make changes. It's hard to find the energy to change when we are keeping up the hectic pace that so many of us are accustomed to. It's difficult to even know what we want our change to be when there is hardly time to think about the mundane everyday questions and certainly not the grand how-do-you-want-your-life-to-be kinds of questions.

 People ask me what I want and, unless it's in reference to lunch or dinner (bbq sandwiches, pizza) my answer is invariably "I don't know." I kind of know what I don't want but I'm not entirely sure of what I want. And what if what I want turns out to be crap and I don't really want it? I guess these are eternal questions. Maybe you solve them before you die and that's when you know your time is up. Luckily I think I've got a long time before I get anywhere so the world is stuck with me for a while.

Absent but coming back

I've been absent lately from my creative endeavors but I'm on my way back.

First I was in a slump, uninspired and unmotivated then I caught some very infectious daycare germs and was flattened by illness, then I couldn't find my knitting tools and was forced to do nothing.

But now those problems seemed to have resolved themselves. I found my tools, row counter being the most important and easiest to lose, so I can continue on the yoke of my cardigan (btw the sleeves are very much the same size), plus the needles and yarn I was missing to work on a new little toy I'm making for...me probably. The toy has got me working and thinking again about fun things to make and I'm recovering nicely from my illness.

I've still got some problems: a lingering cough, some extra snot in my nose, no buttons for my other cardigan, behind on my master knitter swatches, not much time to knit (or write, or think, or shower). Despite those though, I think I'm on the mend; coming back from my late-winter blahs and starting to feel like the world is turning right side up again. As Martha S. says, it's a good thing.